I was thinking about what I wrote in yesterday's post, about how there was a {quickly quieted} part of me that sometimes wants to change careers. It's true. The thought is not a new one, and it doesn't always come when I'm reading critique notes or handling query rejections. Sometimes it just...comes.
And I wonder: What would it look like to get up tomorrow and not write? To not plan stories in my head. To not dream of words and sentences and scenes and chapters and queries and requests and covers and publishers and book signings. And maybe the NYT bestseller list, you know, since I'm dreaming.
What would it be like to throw all those dreams out the window?
I know people who have done that, thrown dreams out the window. Their reasons vary, but out the window the dreams still are. {Don't you love that sentence structure, right? Yoda.} Could I join their ranks? Could I focus on something easier, something that required less effort and concentration and emotional energy?
Truth is, I can't even begin to imagine that life. I was born to do what I'm doing. If I stopped, it would come close to denying who I am. This is what I was designed to do - to write! "This is real, this is me, I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now..."
I can't deny writing. I can't even think of a life without writing. It doesn't make any sense to me, doesn't even compute in my mind. There is something put inside everyone that makes their heart beat. For me, it's writing and worship leading. For you, it may be something completely different.
But don't give up. Don't give up on your dreams. Don't give up on that feeling deep down inside of you, that thrill that sparks every time you put word to paper, or paint to canvas, or cleats to field. Don't deny that. It was given to you, and it's yours. Run with it. No matter what happens - the rejection, the failure, the loss - KEEP RUNNING! Your dream is worth it.
I've got a dream! What's yours?
2 comments:
Beautiful post, Melody! I echo all of it. I've had times where I've wondered if I should give up and pursue something else, maybe focus solely on my teaching instead of balancing writing alongside a day job. But my heart won't let me give up. Writing and creating stories is part of who I am. Thanks for this reminder! :D
Thank you for this post. The spark, as you so deftly put it, I feel when writing is what keeps me going even through the unfathomable mires of Writer's Block.
And this: "Don't you love that sentence structure, right? Yoda." Cracked me up. I tend to do that when I'm really tired, too. :P
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