Right Now

Since I know you're wondering, I ended up passing on the agent's R&R offer.

Do I still wonder if I made the right decision? Yes.

I think I'll always wonder. There are so many moments in our lives that have the potential to catapult us to an entirely different life than the one we're now living. What would have happened if I'd said yes? If I'd said no? If I'd replied to that text? If I hadn't been texting while driving? If I'd gone to the party? If I'd stayed home? If I'd flirted with that guy? If I hadn't? If I hadn't quit [insert extracurricular activity here]? If I had?

To know what would have happened, child? No. Nobody is ever told that.

I'll never know what would have happened if I'd accepted her offer to revise. I do know that I had good reasons to pass. I also know that I may have been able to make the revisions she was suggesting. I chose the best that I could.

And I have to be content with that. It's not the first time I've done something and questioned it. It probably won't be the last. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us. We can't decide what to do with the time that was given to us five minutes ago. We can't really decide what to do five minutes from now.

Just right now. Decide what to do with the time that is given to you right now. Do your best, and don't regret it.

1 comment:

Traci Kenworth said...

Glad you made the right decision for you. Better to pass than to end up regretting your decision. Another chance will come. Good luck!!